The "be still" challenge

 

 

 

Hey all.

 

 

 

 

Here I am.

 

 

Not feeling great,

but better.

 

 

 

September is starting

and I'm not really happy with

the "progress" I've made so far.

 

I have to put in more effort,

but I'm too tired of trying.

 

 

 

I'm going to start with what Alice would tell me:

 

BABY STEPS...

 

 

 

 

Let's start with a weekly challenge.

 

 

Every week,

I will try to incorporate something into my life

that was not there before.

Something from the four categories of the Ornish program.

 

 

I'm going to start with something simple.

I'm going to start with

"stress management".

 

 

Let's try

being still.

 

 

 

Let's try

15 minutes of meditation every day.

 

 

(Meditation has never been easy for me.

I feel useless just sitting still.

I get restless...

relaxation is not as simple as it sounds.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Additionally,

I will start tracking

my food intake again.

I might resolve to taking pics again,

not sure if I should post all of them here...

uploading takes time,

and the pics are crowding my computer

if I don't delete them.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

See you.





Edit on 7th of October 2014:

Did that.
Yeah.


Sorry guys.
And gals.




I'm back.





I'm back for good.



See you tomorrow.


Oath.



That I would be good

 

 

 

Hey people,

 

 

sorry for not updating.

 

I was very busy at work

(we have a machine with very heavy pieces,

plus you have to be fast... so, exercise at work).

I've counted with exercise points

(one point for every 10 minutes)

and quickly got quite a few points,

with which I've helped myself to

an amber heart necklace,

two new books,

and a visit to the hairdresser.

 

 

 

Nevertheless,

my weight still is a huuge problem for me.

It just keeps being faaaar to high

and I've practically given up.

I will never be thin.

So what's the point?

I just as might accept it as it is.

No way to turn an elephant into a butterfly.

 

 

 

I'm feeling pretty much down,

and moreover,

 

 

I'M SICK...

 

 

 

I woke up yesterday in the middle of the night because my stomach was revolting.

And it stayed like this all the day, and also the following night.

Today I feel a bit better.

 

 

I'm not sure if I caught something,

or if the fault should be sought in eating those mini-pizza pieces on the weekend.

 

Sweetie is sure that it was the pizza ;)

 

 

Ah, BTW, it's his birthday today...

but we can't spend it together.

Thing that is annoying me lots.

I miss him,

and all of this having to spend valuable time without him

is not helping.

Sometimes I'm even questioning our relationship...

long distance does no good.

That's a thing I've learned well over my 29 years of life.

I just hope it will not ruin this precious thing we have,

because really M., you are the best thing that's ever happened to me.

I don't want to lose you.

 

 

 

It helped a little to hear Alanis this morning:

 

(Alanis Morissette - "That I Would Be Good")

 

 

 

 

 

Hope you're all okay.

Exercise at work

 

 

Hey people,

 

 

 

I'm okay,

but work is super-exhausting these days.

I literally get exercise at work now!!!

 

 

 

Will write on the weekend, promise.



To be continued...

 

 

Hey all,

 

 

 

 

I am not feeling well

and will update on the last few days

when I'm better.

 

 

 

See you soon. 

Day 30 (wow - a month!!!)

 

 

Hello all!

 

 

 

 

Wow -

already a month!!!

 

 

 

 

Day 30 so far:

 

 

Wanted to go for a walk,

but it's raining cats and dogs :(

 

 

So I settled for a healthy breakfast smoothie

of two bananas,

a nectarine,

a handful of strawberries

and some orange juice.

 

  

That should cover today's fruit intake ;)

 

 

 

 

 

A friend of mine makes true art out of her fruit platters:

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I'll update tomorrow, okay?

Till then:

Keep dreaming...

 



Day 29

 

 

 

Hello all!

 

 

 

 

 

(Late) report on day 29:

 

 

Halfway okay,

much too many carbohydrates.

I had to go shopping for groceries after work

and had not eaten lunch before

- so I decided to get something from the

supermarket restaurant,

so as not to shop with empty stomach (danger!!!).

Unfortunately, there were only meat dishes

and fries... so, fries :(

 

I tried to go for a walk after work,

but had to stop after half an hour

because my sciatic nerve complained.

I hope I don't get THAT again.

I had it for more than a month last time

and it sucks - I could barely move.

I'd hate to see that getting chronic.

 

 

 

 

FOOD:

 

 

 

Breakfast: apple

 

At work: large banana

 

Lunch at the supermarket: lemonade,

big portion of fries with mayo,

and a yogurt with some fruit

 

Afternoon drink: mineral water with flavor

(105 cal. the bottle)

 

Dinner: pasta with "fake salmon" & cream sauce

 

 

 

 

 

EXERCISE:

 

 

 

walking half an hour

 

 

- 3 points -

 

(I've got 75 points together now.

That equals to my amazon order of

a The Sims 4 game and two books.

These are my recompense :) )

 

 

 

 

 

STRESS MANAGEMENT:

 

 

It might sound strange,

but a tranquilizing thing about today was

talking about my future tattoos with my tattooist.

 

 

I will get three tattoos in January

(tattooist is totally overbooked,

so no time for me till 9th of jan):

 

the word AHIMSA

(means non-violence and is the first rule for all Jains)

 

a butterfly

 

and this:

Meaning: may all beings be happy and free

 

 

 

Sooooo excited yet,

can't wait for January!!!

 

 

 

 

LOVE AND SUPPORT:

 

 

 

 

My tattooist

is a good man.

;)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Report on day 30 coming. 

Day 28

 

 

Hello all!

 

 

 

 

 

Here's the (late) report of day 28:

 

Was a good day.

In the afternoon appointment with Alice,

she helps me a lot.

 

 

 

 

 

 

FOOD:

 

 

 

 

Breakfast: banana

 

At work: apple

 

Lunch: spinach knödel (bread balls)

with sage butter

 

Sweet dinner: bread roll with nougat spread

 

 

 

 

 

EXERCISE:

 

 

 

none,

except work

 

 

 

 

 

 

STRESS MANAGEMENT:

 

 

 

sleep?

 

 

 

 

 

 

LOVE AND SUPPORT:

 

 

 

 

 

Alice

is an angel.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Report on day 29 following...

Day 27

 

 

 

Hello all!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Report of day 27:

 

 

 

 

 

FOOD:

 

 

 

Breakfast: yogurt

 

At work: a banana

and an apple

(no pic)

 

Lunch: stem turnip,

and potato mash with vegetarian sauce

 

Dessert: yogurt

 

Afternoon cake: a piece of apple strudel

(puff pastry filled with apple pieces and raisins)

 

 

Dinner: green salad with some cherry tomatoes

(forgot to take pic)

 

 

 

 

 

 

EXERCISE:

 

 

 

 

20 minutes of soft yoga

 

 

- 2 points -

 

 

 

 

 

 

STRESS MANAGEMENT:

 

 

 

 

Yoga helps.

 

 

So does getting enough sleep

- work was much easier today.

 

 

 

 

 

 

LOVE AND SUPPORT:

 

 

 

 

I've got wonderful workmates,

and happy to see that our "new ones"

seem to be very much okay, too.

 

 

Hoping to see my sweetie soon.

 

 

 

Weight is
111,1 kg or 244,95 lb.

 

 

Thank you for reading!

See you!

Day 26 (no-pic)

 

 

Hello all!

 

 

 

 

Today, sadly, there are no pics...

I forgot the mobile at home

and it ran out of battery there.

Now charging...

 

 

 

 

 

Report nevertheless:

 

 

 

 

FOOD:

 

 

 

 

Breakfast: a banana

and an apple

 

 

 

Lunch: spaghetti with a veggies&tomatoes sauce

 

Dessert: yogurt

 

 

Afternoon sweet: small piece of apple pie

and some walnuts from the garden

 

 

Dinner: veggie wok

and a nectarine

 

 

 

 

 

EXERCISE:

 

 

 

None,

but I went to work for the first time after my holidays

and that left me pretty tired.

 

Hope to be able to do something tomorrow.

 

 

 

 

 

STRESS MANAGEMENT:

 

 

 

 

Oh, how hard was it to get up this morning at 4:30 a.m.,

when during my holidays I rather used to GO TO SLEEP at that time...

 

Need to get a good rest to better handle sleepiness tomorrow.

 

 

 

 

 

LOVE AND SUPPORT:

 

 

 

We are getting new co-workers in the factory,

that's good.

 

 

Hope to see my best friend again soon

- she's working way too much.

 

 

 

 

BTW,
current weight is
111,4kg or 245,51 lb.


 

See you



Day 25 (greeting the butterflies)

 

 

 

Hello all!

 

 

 

 

Here's the report for yesterday day 25:

 

 

It was very nice...

my aunt and uncle came to visit,

and as it has been a tradition that we go eating to a restaurant

sometime around my birthday,

we caught up on that :)

but we also went for a walk!

 

 

 

 

 

 

FOOD:

 

 

 

Breakfast: muesli with dried fruit and oat milk

 

Lunch with aunt and uncle: "Käsknöpfle" (Austrian mac 'n' cheese)

with potato salad 

 

Afternoon delight: ice cream with walnuts

 

Dinner: veggie mix

 

 

 

 

 

EXERCISE:

 

 

 

 

walking about an hour and 40 minutes

 

 

- 10 points -

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

STRESS MANAGEMENT:

 

 

 

 

While we were walking,

I saw so many butterflies fluttering around!

 

They even came pretty close towards me...

 

I haven't seen a living butterfly since spring,

but here,

they were everywhere!

I think I counted 11!!!

 

 

Seeing butterflies is a joyful experience for me,

and I'm really happy that I saw them again.

 

 

 

 

LOVE AND SUPPORT:

 

 

 

 

Auntie Anna,

you know you're my second mother.

Thank you for everything.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I continue...

Day 24 (there's light)

 

 

 

 

Hello everyone!

 

 

 

 

 

Did I think yesterday that something about day 24

will be a very happy surprise?

 

Good guess!!!

 

Something wonderful happened...

 

I am VERY happy now...

you'll find out why if you keep reading

:)

 

 

 

 

 

 

Report of day 24:

 

 

 

 

 

FOOD:

 

 

 

 

"Breakfast": a vanilla protein shake

 

"Lunch": another vanilla shake

 

Dinner: wholegrain spaghetti with tomato sauce,

soy granulate and "jeezano"

 

Fruit "dessert": apple

 

 

 

 

 

EXERCISE:

 

 

 

none :(

 

 

 

 

 

STRESS MANAGEMENT:

 

 

 

Sleeping enough,

 

plus: the relief of knowing everything will turn out fine

 

 

 

Remember?

 

 

 

LOVE AND SUPPORT:

 

 

 

 

Called sweetheart an hour ago.

 

 

There's finally light at the end of the tunnel

- or rather,

a whole sun entering towards us!

:)

 

 

 

There's an internship open at his university in September

and it's 90% sure he'll get it.

Which is great,

as it will allow him time to work on his master thesis.

 

 

It seems to be just what we were hoping and praying for...

so, whoever in the universe made this possible,

THANK YOU!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We are so happy and relieved now...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thank you for hoping and praying with us

hugs