The "Cold Turkey" week

 

 

 

 

 

Here we go again!

 

Next challenge?

 

 

 

Ha, now we're gonna start for good...

in the FOOD area.

 

 

 

Let us have a

COLD TURKEY

week...

 

 

 

... and no, I'm not talking about eating cold turkey

(although you could do if you're not addicted to it...)

 

 

 

We're going to

let go of all addictive substances this week.

 

 

 

Whatever it is you behave addictively around.

You'll know best what items these are for you,

so I'm not going to spend a long time talking about mine...

 

 

 

(For me, it would be:

chocolate, sugary treats, wasabi peanuts, and crisps.)

 

 

 

Try to find

not only

"substitute drugs"

(like fruit when you crave sugar),

but really

STAND THE PAIN.

 

 

 

We're gonna stand through this.

 

 

 

 

Reports:

 

Day 1: I'm gonna do it

 Went surprisingly well.
No insane cravings,
just usual hunger
(can be fed with healthy food).

Day 2: Halloween
Harsh to do "Cold Turkey"
on Halloween.
Also, I noticed that
I haven't listed ALL my
"addictions".
There are more,
and one addiction comes
linked to the other.


Day 3: You don't need all of this
Sweetheart's opinion on my perfume and jewellery collection:
"You don't need all of this. You're a gemstone yourself."

 

 It's wonderfully sunny and warm today,
so I'll just do some cleaning
and then RELAX...

 

Later that day.

 

Have been with friends.

One of them gave me some chocolate as a present.

But NO.

I'm not having it.

Not now.

It's not what I crave now.

(Lady Antebellum - "Need you now")

 

Went for a long walk.
Saw peaceful nature.

 Calm... serenity.


Day 4: probed and tested
Talk about the universe
throwing challenges our way
when we decide to tackle them.
My smartphone has issues.
Needs service.
Do I need service, too?
Maybe, church service?

 

God grant me serenity...

 

 

 

 

Day 5: intensive care

What the power of community

- and communion -

can do.

Even if it's just a walk through nature

with close friends.

 

 

 Day 6: hard work

I'm starting to have withdrawal symptoms.

I don't know if I can bear the stress.

At the moment,

I have a lot of Eustress,

but I don't know the "break point"

where it turns into DIS-Stress

and I just can't take it anymore.

 

I need rest.

Rest and calm.

 

 

 

 Day 7: Keep only what is good

Or, to say it translated from a popular German saying:

 

 

"Is it art,

or can it be gone?"

 

 

Cold Turkey week over...

ready for a little

Happy Dance?

 

(Roxette - "Milk and Toast and Honey")

 

 

 

Fifth challenge:

 

SUCCESS

 

 



All work and no play make a fat boy

 

 

Hello friends!

 

 

 

Yesterday morning,

as I was walking on my Wajogking path,

a group of Kindergarten kids with their care-persons

passed me by.

 

 

They were running,

playing,

chasing each other,

bouncing joyfully beneath the trees,

playing with all their bodies.

 

 

 

(Exemplary photo)

 

 

 

We should learn that from kids.

 

 

Healthy kids

INHABIT

their body,

naturally.

 

And play with it,

with all their heart and soul...

 

 

 

 

 

 

In the evening,

I played my favorite videogame...

 

to relax...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Now only to transfer that to real-life!!!

 



Consolidation days... 1

 

 

 

I'm taking

28th

and 29th

as

 "consolidation days"

 

to make the changes

during the last four challenges

more permanent.

 

 

 

Remember...

rest...

 

 

New challenge starting on 30th.

 

Prepare.






October outcome:


Weight: 111,8kg (-5,2kg since the max) - 11 lb lost

Body fat: 51,9% (-0,7%)
Body water: 25,6% (+0,4%)



Measures (since 13.10.2014):

Waist: 120cm (-1,5cm)
Hips: 129cm (same)
Thighs: 72cm (-1cm)
Calfs: 45cm (-0,5cm)
Breast: 116,5cm (-1,5cm)
Biceps: 40cm (-2cm)
Fatass: 130,5cm (-1,5cm)


Happy...



Know your wounds

 

 

Hello friends!

 

 

 

 

In her book

"Écoute et mange - Stop au contrôle!"

Lise Bourbeau

says that we overeat because we are suffering

from an emotional wound.

 

 

She identified five wounds:

• the wound of denial

• the wound of abandonment

• the wound of humiliation

• the wound of betrayal

• the wound of injustice

 

 

We all get wounded,

once and again,

in life...

 

 

 

But, little by little,

we learn.

We learn to live with our wounds.

 

 

And we heal.

We heal each other.

 

 

(Alanis Morissette - "You learn")



The "Loving touches" week

 

 

 

Sorry,

late update...

 

 

 

The fourth element of the Ornish program is

Love and Support.

 

 

I have lots of support,

but I sometimes lack self-love.

 

 

So after

the "an apple a day" week,

the "get going" week,

and the "shut off" week,

this week (I am counting Tuesday to Tuesday)

will be all about

"loving touches".

 

 

 

The first thing I did was

buy a nice rose oil.

 

 

I will apply that to my massive body every day,

trying to do it as lovingly as I can.

 

Forgive this body what I think it has done to me,

and in reality I did to it!

 

 

Massaging rose oil into my body is a way of

making a truce with myself.

 

 

I will also try this week to make as much loving contact with other people as possible

- especially my mum with whom I have a rather troubled relationship.

 

 

 

 

Reports:

 

 

Day 1: smell of roses

Mmm, rose oil.

Smells so good.

Does my obese body even deserve such a treat?

Feels wonderful.

Leaves my skin so smooth.

 

Day 2: no love

I overate today.

And I forgot about the rose oil.

Or maybe,

my subconscious wouldn't allow myself rose oil

after misbehaving so bad.

 

Day 3: apologize

I'm a bit better.

Returning to rose oil anointment.

Feeling like a queen,

smelling of roses.

 

Day 4: having fun means loving oneself

I had planned to

"Go Xtreme" today,

with a big bubble bath

and face mask

and all that comes with it.

But actually,

I don't want to take time for that today.

What I want is to have a quick shower

and then go play my videogame.

So I shower, apply rose oil - mmm - ,

and GO PLAY.

 

Day 5: treating myself well

Woke up earlier than the alarm today.

(It's Saturday, and I've been on morning shift this week.

Talk about the inner clock.)

Wrote blog entries.

Looked forward to the daily loving treat to myself.
Went to my parent's home.
Applied rose oil to my "tires"
beneath the incredulous eyes of my mum.
She always tells me I have to lose weight.
And yes, she is right.
But the motivation has to come from myself,
not from her.

 

 

Day 6: Go Xtreme - mommy I still love you

 Made a sort of truce with my mum
while cutting her toenails. ;)
What a pedicure can do. :D
No, seriously,
the themes of self-love, self-care,
while caring for the body
(and also, trying to treat my mum lovingly)
pop up once and again.
Remembering the passing of my other grandma
(my mom's mom)
nine years ago.
Great get-together with extended family.
I manage to eat only two pretzels and only ONE piece of cake.
Proud of myself.
Paid it at home with a little bread & spread party.
:( Meh. :(

 

Day 7: loving care
Everything back to normal
(as far as is "normal" with me).
Back to work with new working gear - trousers finally fit! -
and motivated workers.
Feeling good.
Getting home late,
but still applying rose oil,
lighting candles,
lighting incense stick.
Settling to bed.


I've noticed these last days that
YES, I am applying rose oil to an obese body.
But behind, beyond,
or somewhere very deep inside this massive body,
is a beautiful creature that wants to come out.
A beautiful creature.

A beautiful little queen,
that deserves to be honored...
... by anointment with rose oil.

 

 



Fourth challenge:

 

SUCCESS

 

 

Smooth recovery

 

 

 

There is something veeery healthy

and easy to make

for a good snack

of fruits and veggies.

 

 

 

 

Go have a smoothie.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Smoothies,

like fruit,

come in all colors and varieties.

 

 

You can have a berry red,

an orangey one,

or a very healthy "green" smoothie.

 

 

 

 

The only thing you'll need is a good blender...

 

throw in whatever you wish.

This can also be a good way of using rests that would otherwise count as bio-waste.

Win-win!!

 

 

 

 

Recipes abound on the net so I won't bore you with them...

and, you yourself can create your own mixes - as you wish!!

 

 

Go smooth!!!

 



Enough is enough.

 

 

Wednesday was bad.

 

 

I came from work all stressed

and super hungry,

as I had only taken some fruit with me.

 

 

Quick (and bad) solution:

Go have a döner kebap.

(And yeah, it wasn't vegan either.

At that moment, I didn't care. I just wanted to eat something.)

And a sandwich from the bakery, right after that.

 

 

Regretted it.

Regretted it lots.

 

 

My stomach felt so full I thought it was going to explode.

Two hours later,

I vomited.

 

 

 

I learned my lesson.

The hard way.

 

 

 

Enough is enough.

 

Nevermore.

 

 

 

Going to take

HEALTHY

food with me to work.

 

Not get into this desperate situation again.

 

Which, by the way, made my weight go up again as well.

I'm on 114,9kg - 251,5lb - again, and not happy with that at all...

 

 

 

 



So this is me.

 

 

 

Some of you have wished for a photo of mine.

 

Just to put a face with these words...

 

 

 

I've been very hesitant.

 

 

But here goes.

 

 

Along with a few facts.

 

 

 

 

This is me on a friend's couch:

 

Myself in a nutshell:

 

Can't sum myself up in a few words. I'm a writer. I've already written a whole book about myself!
But here go a few facts:
- By definition I am a disobedient body. Go shove your norms 'cause they won't fit with my ass.
- Little wicked bitch inside. Beware... she wants cuddles. I could hypnotize you to... well just read on ;) - The day I don't wear anything purple, something's wrong.
- When I feel "not in my center", I do mandalas. Doesn't matter if it's coloring in on paper, flower arrangements or fruit platters. - I am one of approximately ten women on earth who are not attracted to 8-pack abs. They scare me. I prefer a natural, slim body for men, but I wouldn't want to cuddle on cold steel.
- That's not FAT - just a typo!!!
 find me on Facebook: Kirancilla V Chrysalis

 

Can't sum myself up in a few words. I'm a writer. I've already written a whole book about myself! But here go a few facts: - By definition I am a disobedient body. Go shove your norms 'cause they won't fit with my ass. - Little wicked bitch inside. Beware... she wants cuddles. I could hypnotize you to... well just read on ;) - The day I don't wear anything purple, something's wrong. - When I feel "not in my center", I do mandalas. Doesn't matter if it's coloring in on paper, flower arrangements or fruit platters. - I am one of approximately ten women on earth who are not attracted to 8-pack abs. They scare me. I prefer a natural, slim body for men, but I wouldn't want to cuddle on cold steel. - That's not FAT - just a typo!!! here is the link to my blog: www.kirachrysalis.blogspot.co.at find me on Facebook: Kirancilla V ChrysalisCan't sum myself up in a few words. I'm a writer. I've already written a whole book about myself! But here go a few facts: - By definition I am a disobedient body. Go shove your norms 'cause they won't fit with my ass. - Little wicked bitch inside. Beware... she wants cuddles. I could hypnotize you to... well just read on ;) - The day I don't wear anything purple, something's wrong. - When I feel "not in my center", I do mandalas. Doesn't matter if it's coloring in on paper, flower arrangements or fruit platters. - I am one of approximately ten women on earth who are not attracted to 8-pack abs. They scare me. I prefer a natural, slim body for men, but I wouldn't want to cuddle on cold steel. - That's not FAT - just a typo!!! here is the link to my blog: www.kirachrysalis.blogspot.co.at find me on Facebook: Kirancilla V Chrysalis

 

What I'm doing with my life

 

Umm, not much at the moment. Working in a factory for plastic pieces (thermoplastic modeling) - that's my bread job - and writing, which is my passion. Beneath many other hobbies and interests.

Umm, not much at the moment. Working in a factory for plastic pieces (thermoplastic modeling) - that's my bread job - and writing, which is my passion. Beneath many other hobbies and interests.Umm, not much at the moment. Working in a factory for plastic pieces (thermoplastic modeling) - that's my bread job - and writing, which is my passion. Beneath many other hobbies and interests.

 

 I'm really good at

 

 

... eating sweets, if that's a talent *rofl*

Taking my small umbrella with me every day in my bag and forgetting it at home when it is going to rain. EVERY time.

ORAL SKILLS:
Talking Spanish.

Writing (or so they say).

 And some other things. Find out.

 

... eating sweets, if that's a talent *rofl* Taking my small umbrella with me every day in my bag and forgetting it at home when it is going to rain. EVERY time. ORAL SKILLS: Talking Spanish. Writing (or so they say). Kissing, haha. And "kissing". LOL. Hypnosis (see below). And some other things. Find out.... eating sweets, if that's a talent *rofl* Taking my small umbrella with me every day in my bag and forgetting it at home when it is going to rain. EVERY time. ORAL SKILLS: Talking Spanish. Writing (or so they say). Kissing, haha. And "kissing". LOL. Hypnosis (see below). And some other things. Find out.

 The first thing people usually notice about me 

 

 

My physical appearance, obviously :D (not looking too good)...

Humor. Friendly. Fragrance (when going out).

Then they notice I'm nut crazy. ;) Loca lokita loca.

 

My physical appearance, obviously :D (not looking too good)... Humor. Friendly. Fragrance (when going out). Then they notice I'm nut crazy. ;) Loca lokita loca.My physical appearance, obviously :D (not looking too good)... Humor. Friendly. Fragrance (when going out). Then they notice I'm nut crazy. ;) Loca lokita loca.

Favourite books, movies, shows, music, and food

 

 

MUSIC: I love Maná (a true "manática"). But I'm pretty flexible and have a lot of different likes, they change all the time. On my MP3 you can find pretty anything in the pop/rock genre, from old classics to the most actual chart hits. All-time favourites (besides Maná) are Avril Lavigne, Alanis Morrissette, Bon Jovi and Phil Collins.
I have many songs in Spanish, too. I also constantly add new songs I pick up from here and there.
But there is just this one band I can never get enough of.
Maná stays forever... my "signature song" is this:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycaYrLI3Gk0

And I adore this:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5KlN9ujUw0s&list=RD5KlN9ujUw0s

< 3 "otra vez mi boca insensata vuelve a caer en tu piel de miel"< 3
< 3 "te amo con toda mi fé sin medida... te amo aunque estés compartida" <3

BOOKS: I read far too much to decide on only a few. But I've taken a particular liking to David Safier's novels.

MOVIES: Same. But I'm a typical woman. Give me a good comedy, a love story or a drama. Or film versions of books I've read and liked. I don't despise Bollywood films either.

SHOW: Comedy. Huuuuge fan of "Sechserpack" and Kaya Yanar. And to my shame I have to admit I sometimes like to watch court shows :D

FOOD: 100% plant based. I particularly like Indian and asian kitchen, and I love mexican tortillas! But practically any food can be made with vegan alternatives - even austrian traditionals. At home with the computer: Vinegar flavoured crisps, wasabi peanuts, and sweets. :D  

MUSIC: I love Maná (a true "manática"). But I'm pretty flexible and have a lot of different likes, they change all the time. On my MP3 you can find pretty anything in the pop/rock genre, from old classics to the most actual chart hits. All-time favourites (besides Maná) are Avril Lavigne, Alanis Morrissette, Bon Jovi and Phil Collins. I have many songs in Spanish, too. I also constantly add new songs I pick up from here and there. But there is just this one band I can never get enough of. Maná stays forever... my "signature song" is this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycaYrLI3Gk0 And I adore this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5KlN9ujUw0s&list=RD5KlN9ujUw0s <3 "otra vez mi boca insensata vuelve a caer en tu piel de miel" <3 <3 "te amo con toda mi fé sin medida... te amo aunque estés compartida" <3 BOOKS: I read far too much to decide on only a few. But I've taken a particular liking to David Safier's novels. MOVIES: Same. But I'm a typical woman. Give me a good comedy, a love story or a drama. Or film versions of books I've read and liked. I don't despise Bollywood films either. SHOW: Comedy. Huuuuge fan of "Sechserpack" and Kaya Yanar. And to my shame I have to admit I sometimes like to watch court shows :D FOOD: 100% plant based. I particularly like Indian and asian kitchen, and I love mexican tortillas! But practically any food can be made with vegan alternatives - even austrian traditionals. At home with the computer: Vinegar flavoured crisps, wasabi peanuts, and sweets. :DMUSIC: I love Maná (a true "manática"). But I'm pretty flexible and have a lot of different likes, they change all the time. On my MP3 you can find pretty anything in the pop/rock genre, from old classics to the most actual chart hits. All-time favourites (besides Maná) are Avril Lavigne, Alanis Morrissette, Bon Jovi and Phil Collins. I have many songs in Spanish, too. I also constantly add new songs I pick up from here and there. But there is just this one band I can never get enough of. Maná stays forever... my "signature song" is this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycaYrLI3Gk0 And I adore this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5KlN9ujUw0s&list=RD5KlN9ujUw0s <3 "otra vez mi boca insensata vuelve a caer en tu piel de miel" <3 <3 "te amo con toda mi fé sin medida... te amo aunque estés compartida" <3 BOOKS: I read far too much to decide on only a few. But I've taken a particular liking to David Safier's novels. MOVIES: Same. But I'm a typical woman. Give me a good comedy, a love story or a drama. Or film versions of books I've read and liked. I don't despise Bollywood films either. SHOW: Comedy. Huuuuge fan of "Sechserpack" and Kaya Yanar. And to my shame I have to admit I sometimes like to watch court shows :D FOOD: 100% plant based. I particularly like Indian and asian kitchen, and I love mexican tortillas! But practically any food can be made with vegan alternatives - even austrian traditionals. At home with the computer: Vinegar flavoured crisps, wasabi peanuts, and sweets. :D

 

The six things I could never do without 

 

1) Sunlight. (I hate-hate-HATE the winter and the cold. Not good if living in Austria.)
2) Good vegan food
3) LOTS of water - I drink over three litres a day.
4) Friends.
5) Music.
6) Something fun :)

 

 

 

 

 

Factsheet:

 

 

5'4'' small (1.63m)

obese - BMI 42,15

 

Body fat: 52,4%

Body water: 25,2%

 

Vegan, non-smoker, drinks socially.

 

Agnostic, star sign Cancer.

 

Dropped out of Vienna university.

 

No kids and don't want any - for now.

 

Loves animals.

 

Mother tongue German, speaks fluent English and Spanish,

halfway okay Italian, a few words in Hindi.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Measure sheet:

 

 

13.10.2014 - weight 112 kg

 

Waist: 121,5 cm

Hips: 129 cm

Thighs: 73 cm

Calfs: 45,5 cm

Breast: 117 cm

Biceps: 42 cm

Fatass: 132 cm

 

 

 

 

 

All my love,