Hitting rock bottom.

 

 

 

 

Reading my first entries of this blog

almost makes me cry.

 

 

I've started with 109,5kg.

 

Now, a year later,

I'm with 13 kg more.

 

 

 

Yes, you read right.

 

 

 

122,5kg

or a whole 270lb.

 

 

 

Why do I keep doing this?

 

Why do I keep overeating?

Hurting myself so much with a pleasurable thing like food?

 

 

I don't understand it.

 

 

All I know is I want to be healthy and happy.

 

 

So I will stay here.

 

 

And even if maybe I have no right to keep writing,

to keep trying,

I still will.

 

 

 

See you, butterflies.

 

 

 

 

Even though most of you have already made it to the

"thinner life",

I might follow you sooner or later.

 

 

 

In solidarity of spirit,

not thigh circumference,

 

your still fat worm who still keeps the butterfly dream.