That I would be good

 

 

 

Hey people,

 

 

sorry for not updating.

 

I was very busy at work

(we have a machine with very heavy pieces,

plus you have to be fast... so, exercise at work).

I've counted with exercise points

(one point for every 10 minutes)

and quickly got quite a few points,

with which I've helped myself to

an amber heart necklace,

two new books,

and a visit to the hairdresser.

 

 

 

Nevertheless,

my weight still is a huuge problem for me.

It just keeps being faaaar to high

and I've practically given up.

I will never be thin.

So what's the point?

I just as might accept it as it is.

No way to turn an elephant into a butterfly.

 

 

 

I'm feeling pretty much down,

and moreover,

 

 

I'M SICK...

 

 

 

I woke up yesterday in the middle of the night because my stomach was revolting.

And it stayed like this all the day, and also the following night.

Today I feel a bit better.

 

 

I'm not sure if I caught something,

or if the fault should be sought in eating those mini-pizza pieces on the weekend.

 

Sweetie is sure that it was the pizza ;)

 

 

Ah, BTW, it's his birthday today...

but we can't spend it together.

Thing that is annoying me lots.

I miss him,

and all of this having to spend valuable time without him

is not helping.

Sometimes I'm even questioning our relationship...

long distance does no good.

That's a thing I've learned well over my 29 years of life.

I just hope it will not ruin this precious thing we have,

because really M., you are the best thing that's ever happened to me.

I don't want to lose you.

 

 

 

It helped a little to hear Alanis this morning:

 

(Alanis Morissette - "That I Would Be Good")

 

 

 

 

 

Hope you're all okay.