Slow

Hello!

 

 

 

I am making progress, however slow...

105.2kg (231.14 lb) this morning... :) :) :)

 

Yay - I'm Obese Type 2 now!

(instead of Obese Type 3 until below 106kg or 233lb)

 

 

 

 

AAAAAAAActually though, I wanted this for end of february.

I have to learn patience...

patience and enduring will...

 

 

 

Taking things slowly...

(Kylie Minogue - "Slow")

 

 

 

 

... but still work towards the good.

 

A friend once said to me:

"Don't be afraid of slow changes...

they are the ones that last."

 

 

 

Don't let nor water nor storms blow your inner balance...

 

Take your time, especially when eating...

 

 

Believe, and keep walking...

 

Never resignate... only accept.

 

 

 

Most of all, RELAX.

 

Sow seeds of hope.

 

 

The changes you want to see will appear,

at their perfect time.

 

(Scorpions - "Wind of Change")

 

 

 

 

 

Have a wonderful weekend.



The Battle

Hello!

 

 

 

I am sorry if I am not writing here as often as you come to read ;)

 

 

 

Currently, inside me two forces are battling - "healthy me" and "fatty me".

"Fatty me" still thinks all my typical binge foods actually taste good.

While "healthy me" knows very well how to live a good life and be active.

 

 

At times, I succumb to the frail power of "fatty me" - and overeat. :(

But "healthy me" is getting stronger. She is eating fruit and vegetables instead of lots of bread and fats. She is enjoying long walks and Zumba workouts.

Just sometimes, when she gets home and is only a little bit tired,

 "fatty me" takes control and drags me to the drawer where I keep my "unhealthy stack".

 

 

I am trying.

I am trying not to feed "fatty me", but nourish "healthy me".

 

And I am nourishing her with smoothies, with healthy food, with fresh water, with stuff she enjoys doing - singing, being creative, practising languages, meeting friends, ... all this saves "healthy me" from being overruled by "fatty".

 

 

 

And, without anyone accusing me of product placement here, but I've found a wonderful thing at the "Love beyond the Moon" store

- https://www.etsy.com/de/shop/Lovebeyondthemoon?ref=shopsection_shophome_leftnav -

that is the "Weight Loss Bracelet":

https://www.etsy.com/de/listing/173452477/weight-loss-rainbow-gemstones-collection?ref=shop_home_active_24

 

 

I am going to get one.

 

Just to remind myself of the good habits, and alignment with my big wish of becoming a lighter, even more beautiful person.

 

 

(BTW, I also received two new tops today that I ordered at an online shop.

They look good, but would look even better when I have less belly rolls.

Will be.

And I will look gorgeous in those tops.)

 

 

 

You want to battle, Fatty?

Bring it on.

You still don't know who it is you're battling, huh?!?

 

Lighten Up Meditation

 

Today has been a wonderfully sunny day here where I am.

 

 

I went for several walks (two hours in total),

and had two different styles of Strudel:

one savory filled with veggies,

and one sweet with apples, orange zest, and vanilla sugar.

(Yes... I had puff pastry left over.

And I hate food going to waste.)

 

 

 

 

 

This evening,

as the sun has set,

 

I want to do a meditation.

 

 

Relax into a quiet space.

Enter into the reign of perfect peace.

Sink into the presence of a loving universe.

Close your eyes now...

 

 

 

I take this from Marianne Williamson's "A Course in Weight Loss":

 

"Closing your eyes, see your body infused with light.

Every cell is filled with a golden elixir poured forth from Divine Mind.

Angels are gathered around you as you allow yourself to release yourself fully into the field of the Divine."

 

 

 

"Hold this image for at least five minutes.

Breathe out your burdens, and breathe in love's miraculous power.

See light pouring into your body.

Continue to do this visualization, using it when any problem occurs to you."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The sun is up,

the sky is blue.

It's beautiful...

and so are YOU.

 

 



Statistics (never) lie

Hello!

 

 

 

Today has been a day of extremes.

 

In the morning, extreme deception at

STEPPING ONTO THE SCALE (remember, Saturdays count!):

Exactly 108kg (238,15 lb) AGAIN.

Yes, I have been overindulgent with big portions and some sweets, I know where this comes from.

Still it nags to know I've been pretty much lower at the same time last month... but okay, it went back up, back then, too.

 

I then proceeded to taking MY MEASURES.

 

They are, in circumference:

Waist: 119cm (46 inches)

Hips: 134cm (52 inches)

Thighs: 77cm (30 inches)

Calfs: 43cm (16 inches)

Breast: 120cm (47 inches)

Biceps: 37cm (14 inches)

Fatass (this is below my belly, and around the most prominent part of my super-fat arse): 134cm (52 inches)

 

 

 

And as I have a modern BODY FAT/ BODY WATER scale, I measured that, as well:

 

Body fat: 51,4%

Body water: 26,1%

 

 

 

 

But the day became better eventually. I had cereal with soy milk for late breakfast, and then went for a walk of an hour. By late afternoon I had made myself a Veggie Strudel and ate a normal-sized portion, netting about 450 calories. Funny was that after that, I had no more hunger - for the entire day! I went for another long walk (sunset walk) of an hour and a half :) :) :) - was wonderful - :) :) :) , but upon coming home, felt no hunger at all, so I just had a sugarfree energy drink and now (a bit after ten p.m. in my country) I'm still satisfied. GOOD!

 

 

 

 

I wanted to give some motivational speech today, like always, but I'm a little tired, to be honest.

 

 

But you keep Walking, and pumping out your energy, "pumpin' blood"!!

(NoNoNo - "Pumpin Blood")

 

 

 

 

Have a wonderful Saturday

- and Saturday Night, of course :P

 

 

 

Play your life's melody... with more than one key

Hello!

 

 

 

I am very well, only had some cereal with soy/rice "milk" and a pear today... no exercise yet (and probably none, except work)...

my weight, I am trying to get off the habit of stepping onto the scale every day. Saturdays count, and I am also taking my measures (will post them some other day, when I also have the conversion table to inches).

The last time I met my dietologist (a super nice lady with a very emotional and holistic approach to weight loss) on Tuesday, she introduced me to the "piano model" by Gerald Koller.

 

 

It says that our life is like a big claviature on which we play our own life's melody.

Even a healthy person might not use all the keys, but will use a lot, so to vary and have a complex melody.

 

Every key symbolizes something that is important to us:

Meeting friends,

our romantic relationship,

our biggest hobbies,

things that relax or uplift us.

 

 

Now, by lack of time and/or interest, it can happen that some keys fade away, and we limit only to the most "important" ones.

For example, instead of eleven keys, we limit down to five:

work, friends, partner, food, sleep.

And that's where the problem starts.

 

A habitual overeater starts to REPLACE other keys with food, and food only.

AS THE ONLY KEY LEFT OVER.

 

Can you imagine your life's melody with only one key?

 

 

Quite boring, isn't it?

 

 

So open up again to more keys.

Re-introduce other keys, other significant things into your life.

You will know best what those things should be.

 

Play your life, with all its claviature.

 

 

Whether your symphony is sweet,

or bittersweet,

is up to you.

(The Verve - "Bittersweet Symphony")

 

 

 

 

 

Enjoy.

(Some piano masterpieces)

Meet your inner skinny badass

Hello!

 

 

 

 

I'm pretty well... at 107,5kg (236.15 lb) this morning :)

 

Yesterday I was lazy (no exercise), but I had a good day, with tortillas for midday meal, some sugarfree energy drinks and a portion of "vegan bolognese" spaghetti for dinner.

 

 

Today evening I will be attending a carneval party, and I will be served fries and a big salad there (the omnivores will also get a Wiener Schnitzel, but I cancelled that for me).

 

Nevertheless, the fries will add to my calorie count, so I try to eat only fruit and raw veggies today til the evening. Until now I only had a banana and an energy drink (sugarfree), but I don't feel hungry, but very good, probably because of the exercise "marathon" I just had ;)

 

 

 

Right after getting up, I went for a walk of about an hour :) then a banana, and 30 minutes of yoga on the Wii (154 calories burnt, says the Wii, not sure if I can trust it...), and to finish, I indulged for another hour in my new passion: Zumba Dancing! I just loooooooove Zumba. And: another 600 calories burnt away!

 

This is going to be a snap! ;) :D

 

 

 

 

I am noticing that my inner skinny badass is getting awake and stronger. I can feel her presence, at times. She wants to come out, move, get dancing, singing, live out her energy.

 

 

 

 

 

Can you feel yours?

 

Get in touch with her.

 

 

She is YOU when you are at your best, fittest state of being.

She is beautiful, and full of positive energy.

 

You should listen to her, ask her what she needs, nourish her with good, positive thoughts, and good, positive actions.

Like eating healthy food. Like doing exercise.

 

Do it for HER. Because she is YOU.

The best version of YOU.

 

 

(Muse - "Bliss")

 

 

 

 

 

For ME,

some years ago I did this little game with myself:

 

On a program called "My Virtual Model"

I designed myself with 60kg (132.5 lb)...

 

This is the result:

 

(Hairstyle and face do not look like me anymore,

and I wear glasses.)

 

 

 

 

 

Remember:

 

 

 

 

But you could make them happen.

 

 

 

Have a wonderful day.

Put down the fork and pick up the fight!

Hello!

 

 

 

Well, I finished the month of february with 108,1kg (238.5 lb). It's not bad - I lost two kilos - but it could've been more.

 

Today I'm at 108 exactly (238.1 lb).

I had cereal with rice and soy (mixed) drink, and two handfuls of bread sticks with guacamole dip - couldn't resist longer. It's good!

As for exercise, I did some yoga and various aerobic exercises on the Wii.

 

 

Later today, I'm invited to the birthday party of a close friend. I have no idea what they will put on the table, but I will take care of my weight and have only small portions - and only one serving of cake, hehe.

 

 

 

Even if in the heart we are lovers, we have to fight for what we love...

 

(Muse - "Uprising")

 

 

 

 

 

Put down the fork,

and pick up the fight!