-10kg!!!

Today is a celebration!

I've lost minus ten kg from my "absolute high"!

From 125,5kg

to 115,4kg

is 10,1kg lost!!

(That are 22,26 pounds!)

Woooooooohoooooooo!!!

Ballast

Hello!

I am on 118,8kg now... 

... yes, I've been lower, 

 and I will be

lower again. 

I noticed something,
while cleaning up with the #konmarimethod
and 
"Magic Cleaning":

The ballast in my room goes linked to ballast in my life goes linked to ballast on my body. 

Let it go...

... live simple...

... live lightly. 

(Silbermond - "Leichtes Gepäck")

(James Bay - "Let it go")

Better pleasures

At the health resort, 

but also earlier, by myself, 

I was reminded that I have to look for 

#betterpleasures

to reward myself than chocolate, chips, and other junk... 

(which in fact is rather a whip than a treat in the long run). 

So here go pics of some "treats" or "#betterpleasures" 

I've found so far:

A vigorous walk. 

Caipi for one. 

It works even if you're the only one!

A real good pizza with a friend. 

Can even be a "small" one. 

The taste is what's important. 

For special treat afternoons and to cure sluggishness, 

when it really needs to be chocolate'n'coffee:

it be the best available vegan chocolate you can get. 

And enjoy every tiny bit - 

because you'll only have these tiny bits. 

Walking at the sea one Sunday morning. 

After a really long and hard day:

Relaxing into the warm embrace of a bubble bath. 

Best cure for all known ills. 

Instead of Halloween treats:

A berry smoothie. 

When you're tired and motivationless on a rainy Sunday:

a good long nap on the sofa, and life will look better. 

Tea time. 

Enjoying the sheer beauty of fall. 

Health in a bottle. 

Green smoothie with spinach, lettuce, banana, and orange juice.

Let's see what other 

#betterpleasures

I will discover!

Towards a healthier life

... with green smoothies to boost my energy!

On the way

Hello butterflies!

I am doing my best to walk the good path again...

... retaken yoga. 

(Veeeery, very soft and calm yoga.)

And it does so much good. 

My leg is noticeably better. 

I'm feeling fitter. 

I'm eating well. 

No pics, but I'm doing good. 

Also got some new products to try - will tell you more soon. 

I'm single, but still have great friends and feel loved. 

Most of all, I care for myself the best I can. 

Which includes caring for my health. 

I've also got myself on the waiting list for a bariatric operation. 

I'm still extremely sceptical about operations that are not strictly necessary, 

but it could be a help.

Will get information. 

That's it from my side today. 

I'm off into a bubble bath. 

Best laid plans

My dear butterflies!

I haven't been the best guide on the journey so far.

I am weak, 

I overeat frequently, 

and I'm still struggling with my own inner demons. 

Yet, 

the dream stays alive in me...

... the dream to be healthy and happy. 

(Kelly Brook, plus size model)

And I know perfectly well what I'd need to do to achieve this. 

• Eat well. 

• Move regularly. 

• Find inner calm. 

• Feel loved. 

All the basic knowledge is there, 

can be found in the very first posts to this blog...

back from beginnings of 2014...

... sad and comical that I still keep having to remind myself of them. 

So tonight I go now to have a bubble bath 

(caring for my soul)

and then I will sleep in with a firm hold on these words:

Below an infinite sea of your fragrance

through the wings;

your caresses, of

your hands to mine, 

without leaving in vaccuum a single drop

of our love. 

The moon is your presence at night

that embraces

and holds vigil over me

The butterfly in the making

I wrote this as my "blogger description". 

As I have other blogs now as well, 

this will be changed. 

But I wanted to share it here as it belongs to the Chrysalis blog. 

"The Body is the Chrysalis of a Soul", wrote Sri Aurobindo, 

the founder of the Integral Yoga theory. Well, I felt I'd been 

trapped in this chrysalis for too long. And saying this at the 

age of 28 is a little early. Like a worm, I have been 

struggling 

to make my way through the world, and often crawling 

through dirt. And my big consolation that was always there,

 was food. But I always knew that I am born to fly, to dance 

freely in the sky and enjoy the beauty and scent of the 

flowers, to feel the air lifting me up towards the sun. And I 

have started to end my life as a worm, curl up in a ball,

die a little inside while letting go of all the things that were 

my past, and begin the hard and painful and beautiful 

process of becoming a butterfly.

Read my diary!

 

 

 

My day-to-day in the Health Resort can be read under

 

kirancilladiary.blogspot.com

Ultimate healing

I will get treatment in the health resort... 

... rehabilitation treatment...

... to heal... 

Will start in a week,
16th September!

Something in the water

 

 

 

 

Today was great...

 

 

in the morning a half-an-hour walk with a friend's dog,

 

then one hour of Aquajogging,

 

having a salad,

 

 

another half-an-hour walking the dog,

 

 

coffee and a low-calorie mandarin cheesecake with a friend,

 

 

 

 

 

 

and now chilling at home and writing this blog entry

 

and I might have to walk that awesome dog again,

because my friend is t-t-tired from today's activities =)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Plus,

 

of course,

 

 

 

<3  I'm in love  <3

 

(Carrie Underwood - "Something in the Water")



Last resort...

 

 

 

 

I might get treatment for obesity

 

at a health resort...

 

 

 

 

... request is proposed...

 

 

 

 

... now wait...

 

 

 

 



Purple rain

 

 

 

 

Too much #melenaza

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

#melenazaoff